Tried Making You Understand

The blame game really does not help you. I compare it to seeing the glass half empty.
I know you are not in the category of people that see the glass half full but it really would not hurt you to try to jump the fence and go on their side. It makes life feel a whole lot better.
Did you know you have that choice-the choice of feeling a whole lot better about life? You every read about someone that had something horrible happen to them but yet they pulled themselves from the rubble and made a new start. Often times they did not do this because someone was standing next to the rubble giving them a hand and a brand new set of clothes and a new car to drive away from the rubble in. No, they dusted themselves off with their very own hands after they crawled away from it on hands and knees. Once they were clear they were free to walk or run but there is almost never a hot car ready to speed them away from it all. That really only happens in the movies.
We cannot get you into a positive vibe. It needs to come from you.

Something Bad happened means Something good will happen

It took me years to realize this.I guess what I am really saying, is that for everything bad that happens something works out in your favour to counterbalance it.
One example:
You fall out with a friend, but you make up and become better friends, OR you find a better friend. It always happens as far as I know. Whenever I fall out with someone I become better friends with them later. If someone's mean to me, someone else becomes nicer to me later. It's strange, but it does happen.
It is easy to feel depressed, because of all the loss we suffer. It is easy to want to throw the whole world away and run anywhere, but here. Instead, God gave us the strength to stand our ground and fight back.This is the way it is in every one's life, we will face suffering from death, divorce, sickness and tragedies of all kinds. From these experiences we must grow! We must let go of the bad things we are experiencing and trust that God has a plan for our lives.And that plan is always good or better than before.

Precious Thing Called LOVE :)

We're often told not to give up trying,to get what we want. But there's a thin line between obsession/stalking and having found "the one" true love for you.
Whenever we feel an attraction towards someone, it's never good to push them to return our feelings.Probably we do all stupid things in so-called relationships.May be because we were insecure with ourselves, didn't know our wants or limits, or how to feel about love. We settled for less, giving twice as much, thinking it would eventually work out alright. It never does!!Best we can hope for is the strength to move on, before we've become a complete fool or arrested!
In a real partnership, one might give more than the other sometimes. In the end though, it all works out balanced, healthy, and right for each of them. However, when one partner doesn't care, they rule the relationship, because the one who cares will do anything and everything to make it work out. They become a fool for what they believe is love. Don't ever let this be YOU!!
Nothing in the world that is free is as valuable as love presented to another person. All you can do is show your very best and if that person does not reciprocate then you have done all you can do. It is up to you when you feel you should move on but don't waste something as valuable as your love when it will not be returned.

Remembering Dii on her DEATH ANNIVERSARY

Every year when August 25th hits I think that this year will be different. I won't be sad, I will forget my life shattering 5 years ago. Today is the anniversary of my sister's death. I miss her so much. She was a strength to me in tough times, she gave me support and unconditional love. She was a great mom and a wonderful older sister. It's not that I blame her for leaving ME all alone.I still think about all the times I shared with her. All the times that we had together were so very precious to us. We had a connection that I believe nobody has with anybody, except maybe twins.I often wonder what she would be like if she were alive. I wonder what career goal she would have followed. I wonder if she would have a family of her own. The one thing I do not ever wonder about though is whether we would still be as close. I know, in my head and my heart that we would be just as close if not closer than ever before. I always asked GOD WHY HER...?
I have told myself ever since the day she died, that if I live to have a family of my own, I will tell my children about my experiences with Dii.. When my kids will be old enough to understand what I went through with Dii, her death, and how I coped, then I will share it all with them.

Building Up Wallz

"Cinderella walked on broken glass, Sleeping beauty let her whole life pass by, Belle fell in love with a beast, Pocahontas risked her life for a feast, Jasmine could have had anyone but she chose a poor man, and Ariel, she walked on land."
So many people dislike fairy tales because it makes us believe in love, believe that a prince will swoop down and save us when something goes wrong. But I’ve come to realize that in every fairytale-like movie, every girl took a risk. Took a risk for love, took a risk in the name of love.
So, how do we know if our own fairytale won’t really happen if we don’t try, if we stop believing in love?
I know it’s hard for some of you to put down their guard and to learn to trust someone else sometimes. I know because I’ve been through it. People like us, we distance ourselves from people we genuinely like just because we are afraid to get hurt. But does building up these walls ultimately saves us from hurting?

Sounding SELFISH isnt it...?

I had always heard about relationships bad ending's but never thought they were so bad.They are AWFUL.I just wish everything would get better but NOooo how hard we try IN THE END IT DOESN'T EVEN MATTER.Everything happens according to our DESTINY..what all is written up there can not be changed.People say its the matter of hard work but I'm sorry not in relationship's .If we have to live in the REAL WORLD we have to have a practical living,thinking.We are not the actors in a soap or a film, struggling for life and still feels happy about it.Everybody loves to have a secured,soothing,stable life.Although no one can be a futurist but still some how if you know that you gonna struggle hard to survive then who's gonna jump in that condition,some times people does and after wards regret.I am not one of those who regret later on or blame others for their condition.What i do i do it in full confidence otherwise i don't.

Selfish Mean..........

So I have a whole package of personal issues and all that I'm trying very hard to resolve.
And I am trying to be nice and help everyone as much as I can.
But most of the time I end up looking like an a**hole that doesn't care about anyone else but myself.
The problem is I do not look like I have issues I look normal and happy.
but that's because i grew up like that.
Wow i don't even know where to start in fact, I have so much junk in my head.
I frequently end up doing something that i don't like doing because i try to be nice but it burns me up inside. And when I refuse I end up being an a**hole.
How do i deal with this. Because to everyone around me I appear normal so when i say I cant help them they look at me as selfish. when I really want to get my own head straight before worrying about everyone else.
I look normal and happy from outside but thats because i try to keep positive attitude even when there's nothing at all to back it up and it takes a lot of energy to stay like that and not fall into depression but its not obvious to others.