I just wanna run away....leaving everything behind.Now I can not love anyone,it was me who use to say that getting love from someone is just like a dream come true but i never got love from any one i just gave...gave and gave but then also never got back love in return...why??? Where the hell i went wrong....Whom so ever ditched me or not with me anymore is getting love,affection everything one needs in his or her life even after all his or her wrong doing's and what about Me....Thinking or doing good to people has given me nothing except for this pain in life.
Somebody has said it right that it's better to be selfish and turn everything the way you want it to,just think about your happiness forget about others.Like Charles Darwin's said "Survival of the fittest"
Hate myself,hate everything and everyone around me.Why can not you people understand me,why you all do not love me or like me the way I am.
I do not know when i ask people that what is there in me which i need to change they just say you do not need to change and you are very sweet and on and on (a very long list of my positive points go on) then what the hell goes wrong when it comes to relationships.
All of them who are in touch with me say's that one day i will surely get someone who will be just like me,who will be loving me like i want..so i am just waiting for that day to come...hope it will come soon........
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Friday, November 13, 2009
Marriage.................
Arrange or Love....?????
In Arrange Marriages,if something goes wrong you have the guts to pinpoint your mom dad(i mean the family is responsible)but if its a Love marriage,they will just say that sweetzz we informed you before only that this relationship wont work too long.
But see what matters is the destiny and not whether it was ARRANGE or LOVE.
Here,I wanna ask you something is it really important to marry.....???
How can strangers think of marrying each other...???When people know each other so well and then also they fail in carrying a relationship then how can you expect them to mingle along so well.I do not say that relationships before marriages are good or carry some importance until and unless you are totally into and are planning your future with each other.(Sorry to say this,but now-a-days people are in relationships and all just for FUN,no commitments,no responsibilities nothing)People say that we were together since 4-5 years or more but when it came to marrying they were apart..y??
So what's the guaranty that these two strangers will carry forward happily as i have seen many a times these marriages are just carried forward for the sake of it or after marriage responsibilities;these relationships usually become burden which they learn to carry along due to Indian culture.Although people are westernized still the mind set remains the same,divorce and all are not their cup of tea.You must have seen many boys saying that our girl should be hot,stunning,eye-catchy but when it comes to wife they should be decent,sophisticated,reserved (double standards).
Even i do not wanna marry,as i can not trust anyone(koi kisi ka nahi hota)but when it comes to Maa and Paa i say that lets just leave everything over God.But then where's my happiness.I do not say this that if i will marry some one i will spoil his life too but still....
MAY BE NOW IT'S MY TURN TO PAY BACK for their love,affection and what all they did for me.
Have you ever thought,before we were conceived they wanted us;before we were born they loved us,before we were here they were ready to die for us...so can not we do some small things which gives them happiness....
In Arrange Marriages,if something goes wrong you have the guts to pinpoint your mom dad(i mean the family is responsible)but if its a Love marriage,they will just say that sweetzz we informed you before only that this relationship wont work too long.
But see what matters is the destiny and not whether it was ARRANGE or LOVE.
Here,I wanna ask you something is it really important to marry.....???
How can strangers think of marrying each other...???When people know each other so well and then also they fail in carrying a relationship then how can you expect them to mingle along so well.I do not say that relationships before marriages are good or carry some importance until and unless you are totally into and are planning your future with each other.(Sorry to say this,but now-a-days people are in relationships and all just for FUN,no commitments,no responsibilities nothing)People say that we were together since 4-5 years or more but when it came to marrying they were apart..y??
So what's the guaranty that these two strangers will carry forward happily as i have seen many a times these marriages are just carried forward for the sake of it or after marriage responsibilities;these relationships usually become burden which they learn to carry along due to Indian culture.Although people are westernized still the mind set remains the same,divorce and all are not their cup of tea.You must have seen many boys saying that our girl should be hot,stunning,eye-catchy but when it comes to wife they should be decent,sophisticated,reserved (double standards).
Even i do not wanna marry,as i can not trust anyone(koi kisi ka nahi hota)but when it comes to Maa and Paa i say that lets just leave everything over God.But then where's my happiness.I do not say this that if i will marry some one i will spoil his life too but still....
MAY BE NOW IT'S MY TURN TO PAY BACK for their love,affection and what all they did for me.
Have you ever thought,before we were conceived they wanted us;before we were born they loved us,before we were here they were ready to die for us...so can not we do some small things which gives them happiness....
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Being Chweet 16
What all happened..happened i do not regret but i guess that's the stage everyone crosses...some takes the stage seriously or some just do not really bother like i did...But mind you that's the most crucial stage of our life..we do not value it at that time but later on we realize.
It's not the stage to fall in love it's the stage for making some carrier,to focus upon your goals...but most of us just go with the flow not being sure that it will take us to the right path or not.People says friends made at that time remains for the life time but i do not think so,might b RAREST OF RARE and same with the relationships.
People say they love each other truly,carrying a very strong bonding.But what a stupidity you have not seen the outer world yet,you are still a kid living in your own wonderland.Even one of my friend was a part of this stupidity.He said he loved me truly can you beat that at that time he use to fight with his family.Its very difficult to believe.Although he was a very good friend of mine but i do not know when and how he fell in love with me.Proposed me thousand times but i never ever gave him a positive response.But he was spoiling his studies and relationships because of me so one of my friend suggested me that at least support him till the time our exams does not get over.He got to know in between so dropped his exams,in guilt conscious i went in to a relationship it never worked out as it was always one side and that frustration took him to rehab.Then to get him out of that hell i tried loving him,the feelings were not same as his..because loving and try loving someone are two different spares..there's a proverb saying "Do not love the one to whom you love,love the one who loves you"...but does somebody ever noticed that if that person thought the same way,then even that person himself would not have ever thought of loving anyone and no such feelings can arouse with in you if you have never ever thought of loving that person you can just end up trying.This thing would lead you nowhere except for hatred for each other.The same thing happened with me to.If i would not have tried loving him i might have never lost a good friend like him and more over its true that those who loves someone truly and in return when they do not get the same,god counts every pain they have gone through and no one else xcept for their special one's has to pay for it.
YOU LOVE OR YOU DO NOT THERE'S NOTHING IN BETWEEN.
It's not the stage to fall in love it's the stage for making some carrier,to focus upon your goals...but most of us just go with the flow not being sure that it will take us to the right path or not.People says friends made at that time remains for the life time but i do not think so,might b RAREST OF RARE and same with the relationships.
People say they love each other truly,carrying a very strong bonding.But what a stupidity you have not seen the outer world yet,you are still a kid living in your own wonderland.Even one of my friend was a part of this stupidity.He said he loved me truly can you beat that at that time he use to fight with his family.Its very difficult to believe.Although he was a very good friend of mine but i do not know when and how he fell in love with me.Proposed me thousand times but i never ever gave him a positive response.But he was spoiling his studies and relationships because of me so one of my friend suggested me that at least support him till the time our exams does not get over.He got to know in between so dropped his exams,in guilt conscious i went in to a relationship it never worked out as it was always one side and that frustration took him to rehab.Then to get him out of that hell i tried loving him,the feelings were not same as his..because loving and try loving someone are two different spares..there's a proverb saying "Do not love the one to whom you love,love the one who loves you"...but does somebody ever noticed that if that person thought the same way,then even that person himself would not have ever thought of loving anyone and no such feelings can arouse with in you if you have never ever thought of loving that person you can just end up trying.This thing would lead you nowhere except for hatred for each other.The same thing happened with me to.If i would not have tried loving him i might have never lost a good friend like him and more over its true that those who loves someone truly and in return when they do not get the same,god counts every pain they have gone through and no one else xcept for their special one's has to pay for it.
YOU LOVE OR YOU DO NOT THERE'S NOTHING IN BETWEEN.
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