Remembering Dii on her DEATH ANNIVERSARY

Every year when August 25th hits I think that this year will be different. I won't be sad, I will forget my life shattering 5 years ago. Today is the anniversary of my sister's death. I miss her so much. She was a strength to me in tough times, she gave me support and unconditional love. She was a great mom and a wonderful older sister. It's not that I blame her for leaving ME all alone.I still think about all the times I shared with her. All the times that we had together were so very precious to us. We had a connection that I believe nobody has with anybody, except maybe twins.I often wonder what she would be like if she were alive. I wonder what career goal she would have followed. I wonder if she would have a family of her own. The one thing I do not ever wonder about though is whether we would still be as close. I know, in my head and my heart that we would be just as close if not closer than ever before. I always asked GOD WHY HER...?
I have told myself ever since the day she died, that if I live to have a family of my own, I will tell my children about my experiences with Dii.. When my kids will be old enough to understand what I went through with Dii, her death, and how I coped, then I will share it all with them.

Building Up Wallz

"Cinderella walked on broken glass, Sleeping beauty let her whole life pass by, Belle fell in love with a beast, Pocahontas risked her life for a feast, Jasmine could have had anyone but she chose a poor man, and Ariel, she walked on land."
So many people dislike fairy tales because it makes us believe in love, believe that a prince will swoop down and save us when something goes wrong. But I’ve come to realize that in every fairytale-like movie, every girl took a risk. Took a risk for love, took a risk in the name of love.
So, how do we know if our own fairytale won’t really happen if we don’t try, if we stop believing in love?
I know it’s hard for some of you to put down their guard and to learn to trust someone else sometimes. I know because I’ve been through it. People like us, we distance ourselves from people we genuinely like just because we are afraid to get hurt. But does building up these walls ultimately saves us from hurting?

Sounding SELFISH isnt it...?

I had always heard about relationships bad ending's but never thought they were so bad.They are AWFUL.I just wish everything would get better but NOooo how hard we try IN THE END IT DOESN'T EVEN MATTER.Everything happens according to our DESTINY..what all is written up there can not be changed.People say its the matter of hard work but I'm sorry not in relationship's .If we have to live in the REAL WORLD we have to have a practical living,thinking.We are not the actors in a soap or a film, struggling for life and still feels happy about it.Everybody loves to have a secured,soothing,stable life.Although no one can be a futurist but still some how if you know that you gonna struggle hard to survive then who's gonna jump in that condition,some times people does and after wards regret.I am not one of those who regret later on or blame others for their condition.What i do i do it in full confidence otherwise i don't.