So I have a whole package of personal issues and all that I'm trying very hard to resolve.
And I am trying to be nice and help everyone as much as I can.
But most of the time I end up looking like an a**hole that doesn't care about anyone else but myself.
The problem is I do not look like I have issues I look normal and happy.
but that's because i grew up like that.
Wow i don't even know where to start in fact, I have so much junk in my head.
I frequently end up doing something that i don't like doing because i try to be nice but it burns me up inside. And when I refuse I end up being an a**hole.
How do i deal with this. Because to everyone around me I appear normal so when i say I cant help them they look at me as selfish. when I really want to get my own head straight before worrying about everyone else.
I look normal and happy from outside but thats because i try to keep positive attitude even when there's nothing at all to back it up and it takes a lot of energy to stay like that and not fall into depression but its not obvious to others.
